I’m sick and tired. Literally. I’ve felt pretty sick at heart at all the hate and bullshit I’ve been seeing the last little while, I guess it was only a matter of time before it manifested itself physically. I’ve noticed a slight uptick in the headaches too, and that worries me. A bad migraine took out my weekend, and I told Cleetus that I think I need to start tracking, because I’m not sure I’m getting as many good days a month as I had been, which was around 10-12. I don’t think I had that last month, more like 7-8. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t give that up, but still–disappointing.
This morning I got up and the room went sideways. I thought maybe I stood up too quickly, but no, no…I was sick. This is a problem. I need that coffee, but I can’t keep it down. I have to check in online because God only knows what’s going on in my facebook group, some of those folks will post anything, and I do mean anything. Spam, porn, Alex Jones, I had an “admiralty flag” conspiracist who wanted to be put out within the first hour he arrived yesterday. If I let it go there’ll be a helluva mess to clean up later.
I used to just accept any and all sickness, it was just what I was used to. Now, I get irritated as hell. I’ve had good days, I’m doing things, damn it! I want my full third of the month. That’s not a lot to begin with, so anything that eats into it is wrong. Wrong, I don’t think I need to expand on that, do I?
This post is so very short and really full of bitching. Maybe I can end it by showing you what I did with the two days I felt almost human this week and you’ll understand my ire?
I want to be doing that! Instead of holding a bucket, ew.
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Sold! I just made my first sale with that piece, so exciting!
nice on the first sale! 😀 and love the wolves! hope you feel better and have a lot better days coming up…
Sad you are ill. My energy is not what it could be but this year, this time of year, has hit me harder than I remember even though my general health is better. I’ve had issues, not as important as yours, but important to me as my therapist helpfully points out. I will try to be more active, you are doing great and important work and never give up your art.
It’s not just what we do, it’s who we are.