«

»

Nov 11 2015

Dispatches From Hellpeckersville-Color My World

A little while back I complained about not being able to finish things. That was true. I would start projects and abandon them left and right. Or I would do a project, and it would be pretty cool, and then I would drop it like a hot potato. I’m hoping this time around that doesn’t happen. I think I’ve gone further with the monoprints and collage than anything I’ve done in over ten years, and the ideas haven’t dried up yet. I take that as a really good sign.

I think the reasons I couldn’t or didn’t finish things or continue them are twofold. I was a little depressed, and it’s hard to stay interested in things then. And-I just hadn’t hit on the right thing. Sure, I liked zendoodling, sewing, coloring, knitting, etc, but none of it fed the spark. There’s something in the colors I’m working with now I find irresistible, it keeps me coming back to explore. I find I’m feeling happier than I have for a long time.

I know they say that color can affect your mood, but I think that’s more about painting rooms a certain color, like in institutions. For me it’s about a lot of color, vibrant hues, and how to get what I see in my head down on canvas. In some way in the past, I’ve always disappointed myself on that score.  Now, it’s like I can’t put it on canvas fast enough. My trial and error projects are even productive. I can’t get my hands on the right mediums fast enough. There’s nothing worse than seeing your work smear under a glaze because you didn’t have the proper sealer or fixative.

When I’m not working on a piece I’m planning a piece, or I’m pulling prints on the gelatin plate. I feel like I need to have a massive selection of papers to cut from. I’ve been trying to print as many on plain paper as I do on sheet music, but I haven’t been keeping up. I admit, I think the sheet music looks so cool I just want to pull print after print on that. But that doesn’t help me when it comes to putting a collage together, does it? No. It can’t all be sheet music, I need a variety.

It’s strange. I knew I was kind of depressed, but honestly, it’s been a crappy couple of years, who wouldn’t be? But I guess I didn’t realize how dark it had gotten until something came along to let in some light. Yay, art!

4 comments

Skip to comment form

  1. triv33

    Tonight I’m starting to work in green. That can be a tricky color for me, but I know what I looking for, now can I make it happen?

  2. poligirl

    yay art indeed! glad you found some happy! and i love your artwork! 😀

  3. ek hornbeck

    Funny thing about art. It can pull you through some very bad times because you want to finish. Of course you never do, but there is always the work and the nagging sense of obligation that eventually grinds down whatever funk you’re in.

    I hate it.

    1. triv33

      Yeah, I’m finding I can’t really stop this time.

Comments have been disabled.